Angela Amman

I am… Old School Blogging

Old School Blogging

one of my favorite LTYM Metro Detroit 2015 photos, courtesy of Kimberly Mitchell

I am bursting with dreams and holding too tightly onto fear.
I wonder if their hands will always feel like home when clasped around mine.
I hear echoes of failure and ticking clocks as I fall asleep.
I see glitter on the table and remember not to take life too seriously.
I want to be the ninety-year old wearing lipstick and laughing on a dance floor.
I am bursting with dreams and holding too tightly onto fear.

I pretend numbers don’t matter — scales and checkbook balances and the number of times I hit snooze.
I feel days slipping into years I can’t reclaim.
I touch my children’s hair and breathe in their childhoods.
I worry about everything, including worrying about everything.
I cry in sadness and joy, anger and fear, my emotions burning my eyelids even when I wish they’d stay inside.
I am bursting with dreams and holding too tightly onto fear.

I understand everything, until it floats from my grasp and I understand nothing all over again.
I say I’ll do better tomorrow.
I dream of weaving together stories the way they feel in my gut.
I try to fit too many words into too few hours.
I hope my laugh lines crowd out my frown lines.
I am bursting with dreams and holding too tightly onto fear.

Linking up with Elaine from The Miss-Elaineous Life and Angela from Jumping With My Fingers Crossed for a little bit of Old School Blogging. There’s still time to play along!

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Cameron May 18, 2015, 7:30 pm

I hope you are the 90 year old on the dance floor. And I hope I’m 90 and dancing with you, too 🙂

(Also, your comments work on this end!)

Angela May 18, 2015, 11:25 pm

YES. 90 and dancing is the way to be. I’m sure of it.

Elaine A. May 18, 2015, 8:17 pm

I chuckled at the part about worrying. Yep.

This is truly lovely. You have such a way with words…

Angela May 18, 2015, 11:25 pm

Worrying about worrying about worrying. It’s a big old circle, huh? Thank you!

Angela Youngblood May 18, 2015, 10:48 pm

dude, you are on fire. your answers are beautiful and moving and funny and lovely and honest and I LOVE YOU!

Angela May 18, 2015, 11:24 pm

Love you, too, lady. It was a good exercise for me right now. I needed to think about those things a little bit.

Kir May 19, 2015, 8:06 am

I know I tell you all the time, but you don’t need to hold the fear because when I look at you from here all I see is someone I aspire to be, someone I hold enormous respect for, a friend and woman that I’m proud to know.

You are an inspiration to me and so many other people. Go get those dreams! xo